Surley I have my answer by now!

My family and I are venturing into the world of homeschooling. We have never done this before and have not known anyone who has either, so as you can imagine there are lots of questions, fears, doubts, etc. I am contastly asking do you think we should do this? Are you sure? Can you reassure me as to why we are following this path. I am driving him asbsolutley crazy. The main one that should really be tired of me is God. He is the one that has laid this before us, so I really shouldn't be asking over and over again. I feel like Gideon: all of the signs point to yes, but I turn at the first opposition. I have put my son into a preschool one day a week to give him the "socialization" that he needs like I did with my daughter, and so this frees up some time for her and I to have field trip day! We have done several trips already, but it is so amazing how it feels to be doing this with her. I have wathched her milk a REAL cow with no apprehensions, we visited Mayfield dairy, went to and Mennonite community and wathced how they make molassess with horses (she helped in the process too!), we've been to the creative discovery museum and dug for dino bones; but the sweetest and most reassuring was helping he to bake a pumpkin pie cheesecake from scratch for her daddy for his b-day. I can't tell you the sense of peace and joy that I got from helping her in that task. She learned more that day than I think she did all week. Not only did she do it with just listening to my instruction and cleaning up afterward, but I saw something in her: she had joy and peace as well. She is growing up, and I would have missed it all if she were away. I can't describe the joy inside when I am with my kids, and I can't describe the pain either sometimes.



Last night she was not ready for bed due to a late nap, so she stayed up a little later than usual and D suggested we do school, so we did at 8:30. She didn't want to stop! I had to make her stop somewhere around 10:30, and she's only 4! I tell you the truth, I have been questioned and given the cold shoulder for our descion, but I guess God never planned on us having the easy life anyways. :) I have had many days where I was ready to throw in the towel and put them in school and pursue my career, but there is not the peace that surpasses understanding in that decision. I am sure that I will be coming back to this question again and again when times get hard, b/c they will and it will be sooner than I think. I am all about family relationships, so maybe this is why God has called us to this. All I know is that when I am out of God's will I am miserable internally, but when I am where He has asked me to be, I feel the storm within is no longer raging.