If anyone who knows me well knows that I am evolving from a rebellious self-indulgent female into a simple and boring female. I used to care what I looked like when out in public. I spent more time thinking about what others thought about the way I looked more than caring about whether or not I was going to actually get into a college. Of course as time has moved on, so have I and I am seeing the "light" that life is so much sweeter in the simple life. I am probably seen as boring because I don't understand all of the latest technology or have the most recent fashions. I of course would like to have different outfits that I felt good in and that I didn't have to buy that are a few sizes bigger than what I had in the past. As our family has changed, so has our budget and perspectives. I want my children to look presentable and feel good about who they are, but not through clothes. I know there will be a point where I can't get away with Wal-mart clothing only, but at least we can enjoy the simpleness of it now. I don't want to be someone who has to wear a dress that covers from head to toe and never be able to wear my hair down, but I certainly don't want to be defined by what I look like. Why do we do that? Who really cares? I have been there done that and I know for a fact that it feels more freeing to be myself in something that I didn't have to buy on credit to have that I can't pay back. Which brings me to my next point.

I wonder how the pilgrims would respond to the turmoil that we have managed to get ourselves into. Think about it. Through uncertainty, grief, loss, sickness, hardship, etc.. they still followed the call of the Lord. They knew He was going to guide them no matter what the cost. Anytime they faced a trial or triumph, they sang in praise to the Lord. It is my personal opinion that our country is so blessed as it is because of the men and women that sacrificed and kept the faith all for the Lord. When did our values change? When did we decide instead of God guiding and protecting we wanted Him to bow out and we could take it from here? Who decided that our children would be taught sex education in Kindergarten, what having 2 daddies or mommies mean, and that the business of pornography is "OK"??How in the world did we skew so far from the foundation that the Pilgrims trekked for, or what our fore fathers fought for? I say all of this because I am certainly not all together, but I have been on both sides of the story where I chose to either follow my selfish desires or follow the Lord. I think you know which one I have chosen at this point, and it the Lord doesn't encourage me to purchase a new Chanel bag...